How Not to Fall Apart

Suppressing my intrusive thoughts only seems to make them thrive.

the more I tell myself not to think about something, the more I’m likely to think of that very thing

Intrusive thoughts are so common that you’d be more of an anomaly if you didn’t experience them.

My dissociation has made it difficult for me to always act in a way that I want to, especially in social situations.

For me, the safest space has always been in my own head. That’s where everything takes place. I’ve always been content sitting by myself playing out conversations and scenarios.

There’s lots of reasons why people experience dissociation, from trauma to an inability to process emotional information. Often it’s your brain protecting your body from perceived threat.

a tiny little turning point, a tiny little injection of life, of weirdness, of wanting to live unashamedly

“Just run. Just keep running,” I told myself.

Acknowledging that my body is not my enemy, it just overreacts to things sometimes, and that’s OK

Tidying up my room because I want to live in a calm space, not on top of a mountain of clothes and dishes